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August 27, 2005
Hard to believe....
Ohhhhh It's a long, long rope they use to hang you soon I hope And I wonder why this hasn't happened Why why why And I think about the dirt that I'll be wearing for a shirt And I hope that I get old before I dieI thought a long time ago that I had met the woman of my dreams. I spent 5+ years with her, and I thought that we would eventually be married etc. Before February of this year if anyone had asked where I expected to be within the next few years, I thought that it would include her, and our relationship and our life together.
Well, now that the hostilites have passed, I realize that it was never going to work. I don't know whether or not I was providing what I needed to, or that she couldn't handle the distance of our relationship and my mood due to my feelings toward work etc.
Why Scott would you bring this up? Well ... I am scared. I am worried that I am going to fuck something up with my current relationship. Barb is hands down the most beautiful, intelligent, wonderful person I have ever met. My job is a primary reason for ending my former relationship, and if I lost Barb too I would probably not be long for this world. She has made me the happiest I have ever been in my life. I really feel that I am becoming a better person for having known her.
I love you so much Barb. I know that you know, but I still like saying it. I haven't been happy in a long time, and that has changed. For about 2 months I have understood what love can be.
Posted by sgowell at August 27, 2005 08:19 AM
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